LOVE BEN

2007-09-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

it has been like 4 days of fasting already.

i am soo excited bout this as i can save up my $$$.

no more of buying junk foods or clothes which could get me left with like what $2 only for each day.

i am soo disturbed at my own stupidity at times.

haha

last week was a plain lazy week for me.

i shortened my work time and ended up going home before work ends.

i got all worked up with almost everyone.

shoot.i think i was not in a good mood.

well i had a good evening on saturday.

went out with ain darling,mamat,ben,nurazmi,fiza n hamzah for buka.

we had dinner at beach road which was damn packed by the time buka starts.

luckily we came earlier to find a place.

we had a big meal starting with sup tulang(which i would nvr ever eat!haha),roti john, and our own individual dishes.

walked around bugis and had waffle ice cream at city links' gelare.

never had enough of indulging ourselves.

my parents were out of town.

so i had that moment of time to enjoy myself w/out them.

only for a day lah actually.

hehs.

never beyond control lahs i guess.

*evil grins*

aniways,working made me a better person i think.

i have no more time to waste on something which is meaningless.

i have not much time to think negatives of my sayang.(nurazmi)hehe

but there are also disadvantages of working lah.

should not more elaborate on that.

well,i saw something which definitely makes me super RED hot.

but shall not think much bout it as it was all in the past.

have a lovely life now i supposed INSYALLAH.

**focused more about the present than the past.

**focused more on positives than on negatives.

**focused more on what i should do and not what i think.

TODAY is my bro's 23rd birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U BIG BRO.

no presents as im financially tight right now.

and 3 more days to my 4th yr and 10mths anniversary lah dey!

i am like so happy and looking forward to every 20th of each month.

and soon,nurazmi boyfie will turn 20.

geeeez,what should i get for him on his 1st no-more ___-teen birthday.(geddit?)

ok...i noe.

im exaggerating.

its like to 4 more months lah kan.

but still i hope it would be a lovely birthday for him.

and now,i hafta get my beauty sleep and wakes up at 4 in the morning to help mama with sahur.

and to work at abt 8am.urgh...

i wish i haf good night sleep to start my day off.

good night and oh yah.

i will change my skin soon and a new tagboard will be re-constructed okays.

love u people reading my bloggy.

2007-09-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

i noe.
busy lately with work.
got a new job at toa payoh as an admin assistant in a local bank.
shudnt elaborate more on that.
and yah, 1st day of work i got lost and was late by 15mins.
but luckily i called the ofis earlier that i would be abit late.
hahas.

work was rather challenging.
mails coming in at times when u nvr expected.
getting all so worked up when other departments wanted u to do their things and staying o.t till like wat 9pm?
eventhough its hard for me to handle and missing my lil boifren at hm,still i haf to manage.
met new chinese friends.and hell they were soo friendly.
and i got a smoke-kaki.

weekends were spent either at my cousin's place or town.
my kakak sedare just got married.
its been quite sometime i met her and when i went for her wedding,she was like so slim sia.
its good knowing that she wanted badly to slim down before her special day and congrats!
kak shikin,ur like a BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS lah.
town=BORING!!!
singapore is so small that we could hardly go anywhere except for orchard road.

and today,i went out with darling ain to get her boifrens' bday presents.
i took half day off from work coz im lazy.
so i went back at 12pm.
lil boifren was shocked to see me back home so soon.
met ain up at admiralty mrt at abt 5pm n off to town n city hall.
met up with nurazmi syg after his soccer at amk mrt when we were on our way hm.

and guess WHAT????
INSYALLAH dis coming november,IM GOING BANGKOK!!!
hehe
with nurazmi syg and 2 of his soccer friends.
im like soo very the excited u noe.
so money hafta save up from now onwards.
MUST MUST MUST!!!
they got it all planned out and the only thing now is that we hafta book for the air tickets.
yeah.
i told mama bout our plans and she asked me to save up if i really wanna go.
and i was soo terperanjat
even my auntie told me to save up oso and asked me to go.
if these really happen,it would be my VERY 1st time going overseas w/out my parents lah ok.
im soo excited.
insyallah all these will happen.
INSYALLAH.

lastly to my darling yani
please get well soon syg.
we're gonna rock the town again maybe this weekend with u.
i miss and loves u.
muacks

nite people.

2007-08-02T15:48:00.000+08:00

Ive got an interview tomorrow.
Like im so happy lah kan.
Its at ngee an city tower a at 10.30 am.
But dun be too happy yet lah ok.
Its just an interview.
Not fully known of getting the admin assistant post just yet.
SO just prepare everything for the interview.
Im like shocked to receive a call from 1 company who received my resume yest.
ahahs.

So...PREPARE..
=)
tra-la-la-lasss...

2007-08-02T15:28:00.000+08:00

Life isnt how you expect it to be.

Once when you thought everything wouldnt work out,in the end it would.

And when you were confident enough that it would be alright,it wouldnt.

Sometimes,life isnt fair.

Its obvious to tell if you have been learning what life is.

You cant expect it to be oh-so beautiful like always.

At times,you have to work things out to make it right.

I am more than happy now.

Though 1/2 half of my freedom are gone but still i enjoy.

Human beings makes mistakes most of the time like myself.

I realised and know that its wrong but i still dis it.

The question is WHY???

I dont care why in the past.

But i regretted it when it happens and learnt from it.

REPENT is what i wanted to.

My family have been supporting enough to let me still be who i am in the past and who i am for now.

They guide me in every aspects they could to help me find the right path.

Im thankful.

My closest friends whom i called GIRLFRIENDS have been there for me too though not directly beside me but in my heart they are there.

Well,its a lesson learnt.

And gladly to say,i aint a child anymore.

They treated me like an adult who has responsibilities and never controlled my life anymore.

Needless to say,i can go out anytime i want now.haha

nyehs.

2007-07-12T14:03:00.000+08:00

a month off from blogging.
what do u expect?
im a fulltime busy woman.
nyehs.
busy with somethings,someone...

ive opened up another blog
which i used it for selling my stuffs.
visit http://thatwardrobe.blogspot.com
i simply cant fit into those anymore.
boo-hoos.
im a sized M now for goodness sake.

well,a month from blogging means hectic schedule.
ive been busy WORKING,OUTING n BEACH-ING.
hehs.
and i wanna party soon.
i really want to.
due to kocek-koyak,i simply cant party.

i miss my girlfriend yani.
its been weeks since we met.
n she badly wanted to meet ben. (i guess so..)
maybe some day i'll bring him out okays?

and this week,im working like shits.
full-shift for saturday.
like OMG.
saturday? urgh-ness lah kaan.
i wanna have gatherings with my ite friends soon.
but it seems that all are busy with work or school or should i say BOYFRIENDS? =)
this sunday,i cant go to ayu's wedding and mira's big sis wedding.
i am soo looking forward to go to both of these wedding invitation
as its been a long time since i went to a wedding ceremonies.
but too BAD,i cant.
IM WORKING LAH shits.

im getting a permanent office job soon.
once im settled with somethings,then find a job.
ive got lots of recommendations but too bad im not ready for it yet.
there are more important things to be settled first.

so i think that's that for the 1 month off from blogging.
blog soon.

2007-06-28T13:37:00.000+08:00

life just seems unfair

.period.

2007-06-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

its been weeks since i last blog lah kan.
been busy with life and my new home.
after days of shifting things,it has all been settled at last.
my room was quite cosy and small.
not much different from my previous room in bishan.
but overall its alrite.quite happy with everything.

8 JUNE 2007

one thing im not happy about was,i dont really enjoy on my birthday.
it was the shifting day which happened on my birthday itself.
so i cant get to go out from morning till late evening as the situation was quite hectic.
things were brought from my old house and placed in my new hse.
and the whole house was a MESS.
but luckily the movers came in early and left about 6pm.
so between 6-9pm,my whole family started to clean up the place.
and some family members from mama's side came over and helped us.
so during that time,i made plans with ain to watch movie at c.p.
and we watched shrek 3 at 11.30pm.
quite a nice movie indeed and yet mamat still can doze off.
after movie,ain went back with mamat.
me n azmi lepaks around my new neighbourhood,reached home about 3am.
and everybody slept in the hall despite the mess.ahahs

from 9 june till 15 june,not much to update .

been at home the whole entire week to help ayah with the new house.

16 JUNE 2007

well, it was supposed to be only the 3 girlfriend's day to the sentosa.

but forgetful yani brought along her boyfriend cuz she really thought that we were bringing ours when we are not.haha

so yaya meet us up with an angry face in the first place but turned out that he quite enjoy being the only guy among the 3 girls.

the day wasnt that bad though it rains most of the time.

when were in the pool,me ain n yani kept talking about our primary school days.

which we liked to talk about kan sayang?ahahs

it was fun talking bout our pasts.

after that left sentosa bout 5pm and went to vivo as im searching for a tee.

met up with azmi n mamat at town.

had our dinner,walked around town and went home.

21 JUNE 2007

had plans with farah n shiqa as they wanna meet up with ben.

brought ben along to town.azmi send us to orchard mrt before proceeding for his soccer training.

bought some stuffs and azmi called decided not to go soccer as his stomach make problems.

separated with farah n shiqa and met up with ain n mamat again.

had dinner at pastamania.walked around and got home few minutes before midnight.

23 JUNE 2007

actual planning was to meet up around 8plus with the trios after yani n yaya had their fun at snow city.

but yani n yaya had some plans

so me and azmi went out abt 8.15pm to meet up with ain n mamat at plaza singapura.

we had dinner at long john.

then walked to city hall as there's no plans.

ain decide to go home club and all of us tried to call friends to come along.

but none of them were free.

so mamat called his friend who was having a private party.

It was held at Bianco club at Tanjong Pagar.

He booked the place for 2k to celebrate his birthday,including drinks at free flow.

so none of us would spend $$ on drinks or entry.

we were quite reluctant to go in the 1st place as we werent sure of the surroundings.

but as soon as we got there,it was quite ok lah.

the crowd was quite lame actually.

so yah..after the party ended at like 2am.(quite early)

we took cab to boat quay to have breakfast but then soon after reaching the palce azmi's stomach makes problem again and we hafta rush home.

24june 2007.

stayed home.

went out to amk hub to have late lunch.

26 june 2007.

my uncle passed away.

it was so surprised as few months ago he was actually quite healthy and recently he has some diabetes problems.

and that leads to death.

to his soul,may he rest in peace.

love u uncle azmi.

amin.

beware.its a long post. =)

2007-06-05T12:18:00.000+08:00

WHERE U GO? FISHnCO! me and my craziest boy-friend,APISH

ok this is what we did at the amphitheatre after remininsing the past.LOL

okay.

as usual out to town on saturday afternoon.

worked till 5.30pm and off to mit farah.

had our early dinner at FISHnCO wheelock.

got ourselves seafood platter for 2 & a drink which is called shark-sumthing.

i totally forgot.

we shared food and drinks.

off to taka to meet my best plus crazy boy-friend,apish.

he called and asked to meet there.

so we met and chilled as we were waiting for ami as well.

he'd just finished his soccer game.

chilled,talk craps and more craps.

its been quite awhile since me,ami n apish chilled together.

accompanied them to have their dinner pulak at taka's kfc with farah.

and then,we were lost.

no where else to go cuz we are tired of town actually.

apish met quite a few friends.

and on the way to the taka's 7-11,we saw yanti,yati,sasha and the rest of their friends.

they were going home.

and ya we decided to go home as well.

town=BOREDOM.

off to the orchard mrt and we bounced.

saw yanti and the rest again.took the same train.

reached bishan,me and dearest ami decided to chill near my house at the

amphitheatre for awhile cause my family is not at home.

we started to reminisce the pasts.

cause we had many wonderful memories back in secondary school.

we became breakdancers then for 2yrs.

with akid,zuhaimi,wani,tasha,ayu and even ain &yani(my 2 girlfriends)

and we even had our own group name and also our own nick.

mine is rain if im not wrong.kentals kan...=p

and yah,we breakdance almost everywhere i tell u.

going to bukit batok to meet new breakers and learn new steps.

lying to my parents that i had to go home late as there was remedial lessons going on or lying to tell there was cca till night becus of competitons we were going to have.

and then going home late at night wearing school uni. still.

ahahs

LIES and more LIES.

but gerek you know.

i mean being a student in secondary school.

life is different back then.

had soo much fun.

that was when i came to know my boyfie.

we became friends since we were in the same class for the 1st-2yrs.

and the last 2mths of secondary 2,we became bf gf.

klakar lah i tell u.

and till today,we are still together though many break-ups.

i love him so soo very much.

-love is not only about loving and caring for one another but its also about understanding and giving one another a chance-

2007-06-04T12:29:00.000+08:00

i am not able to hide secrets in me anymore.

i am not able to hide my feelings any longer.

it hurts soo badly.

soo bad that i could even jump from a tenth story building.

IF I WANTED TO.

after all the talks and understanding each other needs,

things are still the same.

after all the love ive given,nothings seems to change.

why does all these shits have to happen to me?

oh well,i would rather forget bout that and enjoy my bday which is coming real soon.geees

he apologised when i questioned him .

so yah,apologies accepted. =)

and..

ahah

i emailed mama n abg bout my presents.

kentals kn.

emailed giving them ideas on what to buy for me.=p

so these are the things i wished i could have as presents:

1)adidas sneakers

2)baby-g or the new adidas watch

3)guess handbag

4)a new wallet.

5)ckin2u perfume(ladies version of course)

6)flip-flops

7)more tops if possible.

but the most important wish of all,i wish that all my family,friends,gilrfriends would be happy and i dont wanna lose any of them.no not yet. =)

-ok love u people.muacks-

2007-05-30T13:58:00.000+08:00

suddenly,something crossed my mind.
i wanna go ZOO.
see all the animals and being like 1 of them.
ok kans?
i called ayah just now cause i remembered something.
he once told me that working as a government servant got special priviledges.
soooo...
i called him just now and told him that i wanna go zoo on my bday.
so he said,"ok,nanti ayah amek kan kad priviledge tu.pergi night safari or jurong bird park pon suke hati ko lah."
and i was like,"pape lah ayah.dont forget to take the card.i want it a.s.a.p.."and tak sempat nk cakap lagik,
my dad hangs up.
urgh...
but hopefully he brings back the card.

so...the moral of the story is...

I REALLY BADLY WANNA GO ZOO...
its been ages since i went there.
i wanna celebrate my bday there with friends.
with family,gi mkn jer lah ok keluarga kus...

ok thats it

birthday countdown

2007-05-30T12:13:00.000+08:00

just another day had past.
work was hell.PLUS tiring.
i wanna get an office job.permanent one i mean.
i wanna go to school and complete my education like every kid has to.
maybe,im gonna go for a part-time higher nitec in business IT at ite clementi.
as i'll be shifting to wdlnds soon,its nearer that way.
and ALHAMDULILLAH ben is alright now.no more fever or flu.
by the way,i didnt think soo that we could shift to wdlnd by 1st week of june.
not everything has been packed.
mama told me that most probably the latest that we could shift was on the 2nd week of june.urgh-ness
its still early though.
mama and me didnt have the nervous-ness to shift like ayah did.
he's always back home late nowadays to see how the renovation like at the new home and painted the whole house all by himself i guess.hee
and yah he told me my new room have been painted yellow like i wanted to.
BRIGHT YELLOW.

aniways,time to countdown to my 19th birthday ass.

9 more days to my 19th birthday ok people.

go grab me presents and lots of presents as its now the great singapore sale kan.

cant wait to celebrate it with everyone. chey mcm paham jek.

k.got to go.will sambung lagik mlm if got time.

NINE MORE DAYS...

2007-05-27T12:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday met up with cousin,iza at the bishan mrt to fetch farah at vivo city after her work.
after that,went to town to have our late lunch.
cousin separated with us as she has plans with her friends.
so had our late lunch at taman rose.
and as usual,i didnt finished my food.wondering why as im pretty hungry at that moment actually.hahs
went around far east and decided to chill at taka.
around 6plus met up with yanti,mel and nana at lido.they had their lunch cun dinner there.
and as usual,we cam-whored.
walked around town and farah had to go off to watch soccer at ite simei.
so left me and the rest.
decided to go esplanade cuz mel wanted to meet her bf.
there's a gig going on there and it was my 1st time watching a gig.
ahah.cool lah sei.
and then,yanti went off and mel stayed with her bf.
so off to ct hall mrt with nana to meet up with haris and dearest boyfie.
jalan2 and then went to clarke quay's coffee bean to rest and haf some desserts.
off to boat quay and tralalala.ahas.
and then lepaks and then balek time.
nana belanje duit cab.
tahnks na...
had fun wif u girls lah.

2007-05-24T12:44:00.000+08:00

it was a blessing having him in my life.
things changed eversince.
life wasnt the way i expected it to be.
though many misunderstandings happened,the LOVE between us doesnt seems to fade away.
as we had our own ways to settle our problems and keep the love between us stronger.
ALHAMDULILLAH.

the past few days was just like a normal day.
ben was mischievious.
and i was alone,lonely and many more larhs.
so hoping for the weekends.
saturday,most probably out with nana(azmi's).
maybe to home club's flea market 1st.
cuz dearie might be having his soccer training or game.
not sure.

was informed by ayah that this sunday we are going to our new house to have a picnic there.
ahahs.last monday i went,the renovation is almost done.
we only had some furnishing to do and painting too.
im gonna paint my room bright yellow.
so as my room will not be so dark when night time comes.
im thinking of how to cabot from work this saturday as i badly wanna go out.
ive promised nana that i would go out with her n mel long time ago i guess.
so this saturday is the perfect time for us.hee
i have yet to bath so,blog soon.

*reminising the past makes us stronger in the future.*

2007-05-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

work was quite tiring.

imagine u hafta stand and no sitting is allowed from 12-8pm.

u hafta just stand and help customers.

hearing their nonsense.not allowed to bring in food.

and imagine again that the things that you're selling wasnt sold many.(paham tk?haha)

made a new friends,like the supervisor and some full time people.

quite friendly.

so sunday (20/5) went to the zouk flea market with dear and met up with ain n mamat there.

not quite interesting. mostly were guys' stuffs lah.

bought a sling bag and in the end mcm menyesal gituk beli.haha

so after that,headed to town AGAIN and had our late lunch cum dinner at taman rose.

window shopped again.

went to my new house at woodland today with ayah,mama,ben n yana.

surprisingly,my room looks smaller than my present room.

and the renovation is almost done.

we're shifting by the 1st week of june and that means,im going to celebrate my 19th birthday at my new house.

urgh...

had dinner at toa payoh and headed back home after that.

tiring monday.

2007-05-19T09:51:00.000+08:00

Had an interview yesterday at robinson centrepoint's macdonald at 6pm.
but kak nora(e interviewer) was abit late.its alright.still have time.
so was interviewed and it went quite well as kak nora is friendly and nice.
after the interview,she brought me up to my workplace and showed me around.
let me tell u,it was pretty small.
my job was to stand,served customers and jot down the clothes that we sold on the day itself.
and i met a few of my ite bishan mates,working at the same place,same floor but different department.
so got kakis lah.

and then after interviewb at about 7,met ain around town to have our dinner at subway.
and it was my 1st time eating there.
went to WHO.
bought 1 black long sleeve and a long t-shirt for work.
walk around and then mit up with hubby at wisma.
accompany him to have his dinner at far east long john.
took the train at abt 10plus,bounced.
saw yanti and friends boarding at city hall.
and yah reached home at abt 11plus.

and guess..noone's at hm the minute i reached.
ahahs.

well,today working again at 12-8pm.
after that going back straight cuz most probably tomorrow after work im gonna go out again.
okies.gonna rest a lil while and get ready to work.

blog soon.

another day

2007-05-18T13:24:00.000+08:00

its hard to maintain a good relationship.
real hard sey.
one minute you're OK and the next minute it turns out real bad.
i dont understand why he has to keep some things from me.
im not going to do anything stupid or wat.
at the most,im gonna questioned him.
that's it per.

i told him before,i will try my very best to be a reasonable person
but then it turns out this way.
i really dont know what else to do.

aniways,ive got myself another job at robinson centrepoint.
will start working tomoro as sales assistant.
and yah,interview is today afternoon at 5.30pm at the robinson centrepoint's macdonald.
ahah.so finally got a job.like cepat gitu kan.
thanks to my couz. soo much lah.

so here i am,getting ready for the interview.
a must to wear formal attire like all black.
ahah.
nervous sia.

maybe thats it for today.
nak get ready for the interview lah katekn.
ahah.

getting new

2007-05-17T16:00:00.000+08:00

A new created blog.

the old one,i just clean forgot what my password was.

due to my soo-not good memory.thanks ehk

so,here goes...

Almost half a year has gone.

but it feels like just yeaterday,2007 has just begun.

and THEN...

life was great eversince.

though at times i felt neglected or unappreciated,

im still thankful for almost everything.

things seems so wonderful with BEN around.

when im at my most dreadful times,he seems the only ONE who could cheer me up,

make me smile and of course makes me laugh.

Relationship with Dear is ok,not good but OK.

He's the REASON that makes me feel so ALIVE.

went out wif girlfriends last sat.

brought ben along and we had super dooper fun.

atleast,ive get to spend time with gfs after so long we didnt get to mit up.

aniway,pejam-kelip pejam-kelip, its already 10yrs of a BEAUTIFUL FRIENDSHIP sey.

i feel great having them around plus our DIRTY LIL SECRETS that we shared for the past 10yrs lah.ahahs

confirm belambak punyer.tak terkira.

and and and,

another few more weeks to my 19th birthday.

soo...

kawan-kawan,its time to save up.

its on the 8th of JUNE.

im hoping for adidas/asics sneakers,more tops,more bottoms,wallet and a baby-g or any cool watches ok?

hah.

some memories..

BENNY!!!